Sunday, September 26, 2010

Apology

I have started to see something about me that I do not like, and with the Lord's help I would like to change it. For the last couple of months I have been so wrapped up in my own little world that I have not payed much attention to the cares and concernes of the people who are important to me.  I have taken the attitude that the crisis in my life is somehow greater than the problems and concerns of those around me.  And yet, realistically, everyone has or will go through major trials in their lives.

I have a sister-in-law who has just had a knee replacement surgery, and I haven't even asked how she is doing.  I have a friend and an aunt on dialysis. Have I prayed as much for them as they pray for Bruce and me? So many of my friends have children or grandchildren who are not serving the Lord.  Have I prayed as faithfully for them as I used to?  I have numerous friends on facebook, and all of them have cares of their own, but so many of them have taken the time to encourage me and tell me that they are praying.  Have I done the same for them?

I am ashamed of myself. Although my time on the internet is limited to Bruce's sleepy times, and most of my writing has to be done off line at my granddaughter's apartment first, I do have the time if I make it.  It is the old self that is at the heart of it all, and I am asking the Lord to help me get rid of it.

Thank you all for reading my blogs and loving me just as I am, but I hope what I am can change into what He wants me to be, a mirror of his selfless image.

For the next post see: Overflowing with Thankfulness

For the previous post see:  It is going to get easier as I go

7 comments:

  1. I think we all have times in our lives like that. It is humbling to read your humbleness in realizing it. It makes me wonder who I might have been ignoring lately... I will continue to pray for you and for Bruce, but also for you to keep your focus on the Lord and not this struggle.

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  2. I'll echo Harter-- I believe there are stages in our lives, when our own little world requires more of our attention. My grandfather is a pastor, and I often go to him for advice. One of the best things he ever told me was, "Your family is your #1 Ministry."

    But, also like Harter, this makes me wonder who I might have been ignoring lately, by accident.
    I know from experience that it's often just a smile or a kind word that can completely turn my day around. I need to focus more on the minute-by-minute changes I can make...

    Thanks for this.

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  3. Carol, bless your wonderful heart! You are too hard on yourself. Everyone knows what you are going through and expects nothing from you. We should all look to God for everything, but if you have a moment where others pass your thoughts pray for them. Don't forget the lesson of the footprints. Jesus not only carries you, but your friends and loved ones. He does not expect you to carry them. Here is a verse for you, Isa. 26:3, and here is a verse for your husband, Ps. 16:9. My prayers are with you for perfect peace, healing, and rest.

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  4. I know that others don't expect more of me; they are all so kind, but if I would be like Jesus, and that is where I wish to be, I want His compassion in me to override my own self-centeredness. Thank you all so much for your kind comments.

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  5. I enjoy reading your blog so much. I love the way you have a continuation of the story going on and how you link the stories from the past and make it easy to read it chapter by chapter. You are such a good storyteller.

    Thank you for sharing your story with us and for sharing the wisdom you've gleaned and being real, not set above us as if you're perfect and we could never attain to the same perfection.

    I'm rejoicing with you that Bruce is doing better, and God is giving you more time with him with good mental clarity to really be able to share life together.

    It meant a lot to me to see my profile picture in there among all of those others that I consider friends even though we've never met in person. God is doing amazing things through technology. One of them is that He is enabling us to bear one another's burdens and pray for people we never would have met otherwise.

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  6. Thank you Penney for your wonderful comments. Friends like you, and all the others who read and comment and pray with us, have made this journey so much easier to bear.
    I hope never to create the impression that I am anything special, but to point to God who is.

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