Friday, September 17, 2010

In Everything Give Thanks

The verse, "In everything give thanks, for this is the will of God concerning you." has never held more meaning for me than it has this morning.  Yesterday I was struggling.  I had just been told that my husband would never be completely "normal" again; he would never preach again; he would be doing well to learn the basics like walking and feeding himself, but his speach and his clarity of mind would never fully return, and his preaching days were gone for good.

I cried yesterday.  I didn't want to accept it, I wanted the assurance that he would be well, completely well, but I was tired and discouraged.  A darling child of God was working in the hospital on his floor, and she took his hands and encouraged us with the words "In everything give thanks."  It reached my head.

This morning those same words reached my heart. And I thanked Him. I thanked God that He had a purpose in this situation.  I thanked Him that Bruce was still alive and was still able to tell me that he loved me. I thanked Him that he was still able to remember scripture even though he couldn't remember what day it was; I thanked Him that he had no trouble remembering where he was going when he died, even though he couldn't remember whether he was in the St. Micheal's Hospital in Toronto, or Hamilton on the Hill or in some fancy motel.

And I rejected the statement that he would never preach again.  He is already preaching.  His words, though slurred and slow, and sometimes a little confused, always lift up Jesus.  His desire in everything he tries to tell us is to draw his family closer to God.  And his thoughts of love are spoken more clearly now than ever before.

Why should I not give thanks? I mourn the stripping away of his pride and independence.  I admit that.  But his childlike faith and simple love have been unveiled through the stripping. He may never preach again with eloquence and style; he may never again be a judge encouraging young preachers at the ACE International Student Convention like he has done for the last few years, but I sincerely believe that God has not finished with my husband and will use him in ways I cannot yet fathom.  And for that I thank Him.

For the next post, see: It is going to get easier as I go

To read the previous post see: Giving Up

6 comments:

  1. What a testimony that he is still saying how much he loves Jesus and trying to draw his family closer to Jesus.

    I'm believing for miracles for him.

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  2. God has blessed you, Carol. What a wonderful man. "Because of the service by which you have proved yourselves, men will praise God for the obedience that accompanies your confession of the the gospel of Christ, and for your generosity in sharing with them and with everyone else." 2 Cor 9:13 God is watching over His child.

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  3. Sister remember that the adversary withheld Daniels answer to prayer 21 days. Daniel was not discouraged by the time, He just kept praying and believing GOD. At the appointed time, the answer to his pettitions arrived. GOD always answers. GOD is not a lier and God is not mocked. That which you and Brother Bruce, have sown you will reap, both here and in the life to come. I pray now that your heart receive peace.

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  4. Oh to have a childlike faith.
    What a testimony.

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  5. Carol,
    My father-in-law passed away a couple years ago after a very long battle with Parkinson's disease. He, too, was a preacher and teacher of the Word. But one of the first things to be affected by the Parkinson's was his voice. However, at his funeral, a young nurse testified as how Dad, even though he couldn't speak with his mouth, could speak with his eyes and his facial expressions, and was such an encouragement to her.
    God will continue to use His saints that are willing, no matter what their limitations.
    I'm praying for you.

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  6. I want you all to know how much you bless me with your comments.

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