Saturday, March 23, 2013
When they told me I had just been to my Uncle Hank's memorial service, I cried. I had no recollection of my uncle dying, and I started to grieve all over again. I had trouble believing that my favorite uncle could be dead.
I also found it hard to fathom that I had caught a plane by myself, and had flown to Winnipeg. Why would I go to Winnipeg without Bruce? That is still hard to understand, and I am guessing, it won't happen again.
It wasn't long before I realized that I had just had another incident of transient global amnesia.
Gradually, the recent past began returning to me. I now remember that my uncle had cancer. I also remember the beautiful service they held, and all the music that was sung in memory of a man with a clear tenor voice and a wonderful heart of gold.
But the fog is still there. I vaguely recollect the breakfast we spent together the next day. I do remember my tiredness, and I do have a foggy recollection of the start of a conversation with my sister-in-law, but then it all goes blank.
The next thing I remember is being in the hospital with my brother and his wife, and being weak and dizzy. They told me that I had suddenly become confused and couldn't remember why I was there. They say I cried a lot after that, and asked the same questions over and over again. I even mentioned the words transient global amnesia, so I was, sort of, aware of what was happening to me, but I don't remember any of that.
I'm OK today. I dread going to the airport by myself to catch the plane early tomorrow morning. I still fear a recurrence, but I won't be alone. Jesus will be with me and I am so thankful for His presence.
The most likely reason for the amnesia is the tiredness and the death of my uncle, but there is another possibility.
A short time ago I was told I needed to take eye drops to prevent loss of sight from glaucoma. The first episode of amnesia happened while I was taking them. When I checked possible side effects, memory loss was one of them. I quit the eye drops.
I recently saw the eye doctor again. He threatened me with eventual blindness if I didn't go back on the drops, so I complied and went back on the drops.
Was the recurrence of the amnesia due to the drops? I don't know.
But God does. I will wait for His leading, and trust in His care.
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